Postpartum depression affects many new moms. Chrissy Teigen is one of them.

1‘My eyes welled up because I was so sick and tired of being in pain.’

Looking at her gorgeous Instagram profile, Chrissy Teigen’s life seems to be perfect.

But looks may be deceiving.

“I had everything I needed for being happy,” the entrepreneur, model, and cookbook author wrote in a very powerful new essay for Glamour. “And yet, for high of the last year, I felt unhappy. What basically everyone around me — but me — knew getting the club December was this: I have postpartum depression. How can I feel that way when things are all so great?”

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Teigen experienced physical pain:

“Getting up out of bed to get to set by the due date was painful. My back throbbed; my ­shoulders — even my wrists — hurt. I didn’t provide an appetite.”

She didn’t think that working or spending time with her friends could make a difference:

“When I wasn’t inside the studio, I never left the home. I mean, never. Not even a tiptoe outside. … Most days were allocated to the exact same i’m all over this the couch and rarely would I muster inside the energy making it upstairs for bed.”

She felt like she was losing what made her, her:

“I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and perhaps growing out of your role: ‘Maybe I’m not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to become a mom.'”